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Vroom goes the chiisai no hachiroku
Created on 2005-12-31 05:38:28 (#9142343), last updated 2007-12-02
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Basic Info| Name: | Zeru |
|---|---|
| Birthdate: | 1989-02-20 |
Bio石琳英
Dirty, kicking and screaming; torn from the woman I love,
Is how I came to be, and thus, how I ended my life.
The time was half past eleven p.m., and a faint beep can be heard.
The room smells of anti-bacterial disinfectant.
The only thing on my mind was the one who filled the void in my life
She was the second person who truly understood and loved me.
And now she may fill my life with emptiness and loneliness Herself.
I had replayed the entire event in my head again,
Hoping each time that it’ll turn out differently:
She walked besides me, hand in hand, whistling our favorite song
As we made our way to our new home, a reckless and drunk driver,
Screeching its tires and turning from a cross street,
Roared down the road going down the opposite lane.
We turned to watch the scene, of the car dodging traffic left and right,
When it finally came near us, we watched the driver once again swerve
To dodge another on-coming car. This time his change of directions brought him to us.
I couldn’t move, I couldn’t breathe, even as my whole world seems to slow down.
In the most urgent of time, I had froze up. I couldn’t do anything
To save Her.
She reacted by pushing me out of the way instead.
As Her hands slipped loose, I regained my conscious mind,
But it was too late.
As I sit here with the stolen scalpel from Her failed surgery,
I watch the Her face intently with loving.
Her breathing was laboring, Her face white from the loss of blood.
And I sit here thinking to myself, regretting all the things that I
Could have, should have, might have, would have
Done, but didn’t. All of a sudden,
The monitor switched to a flat red line, and the speaker sounded a steady long tone.
The doctors and nurses rushed into the room as I shrink away.
I knew.
I knew this would the final moment.
Grasping Her hand for the final time, I retreated to a corner of the room.
Scalpel in hand, Romeo in mind, I say my fare thee well to the world.
With a concluding cry of happiness, I buried the scalpel deep into my heart.
The quicker I die, the quicker I can see Her again.
As I slump down to the floor, the doctors paid no attention to me.
Mistaking my cry of happiness as one of grief, they busily attend to Her.
As my vision fades, I can still see them trying to resuscitate Her.
With my last breath, I spoke softly to myself,
“Lin”
And all was dark.
As my life ends, the electric pads worked their magic to my love.
The doctors had once again pried me away from the woman that I love.
Dirty, kicking and screaming; torn from the woman I love,
Is how I came to be, and thus, how I ended my life.
The time was half past eleven p.m., and a faint beep can be heard.
The room smells of anti-bacterial disinfectant.
The only thing on my mind was the one who filled the void in my life
She was the second person who truly understood and loved me.
And now she may fill my life with emptiness and loneliness Herself.
I had replayed the entire event in my head again,
Hoping each time that it’ll turn out differently:
She walked besides me, hand in hand, whistling our favorite song
As we made our way to our new home, a reckless and drunk driver,
Screeching its tires and turning from a cross street,
Roared down the road going down the opposite lane.
We turned to watch the scene, of the car dodging traffic left and right,
When it finally came near us, we watched the driver once again swerve
To dodge another on-coming car. This time his change of directions brought him to us.
I couldn’t move, I couldn’t breathe, even as my whole world seems to slow down.
In the most urgent of time, I had froze up. I couldn’t do anything
To save Her.
She reacted by pushing me out of the way instead.
As Her hands slipped loose, I regained my conscious mind,
But it was too late.
As I sit here with the stolen scalpel from Her failed surgery,
I watch the Her face intently with loving.
Her breathing was laboring, Her face white from the loss of blood.
And I sit here thinking to myself, regretting all the things that I
Could have, should have, might have, would have
Done, but didn’t. All of a sudden,
The monitor switched to a flat red line, and the speaker sounded a steady long tone.
The doctors and nurses rushed into the room as I shrink away.
I knew.
I knew this would the final moment.
Grasping Her hand for the final time, I retreated to a corner of the room.
Scalpel in hand, Romeo in mind, I say my fare thee well to the world.
With a concluding cry of happiness, I buried the scalpel deep into my heart.
The quicker I die, the quicker I can see Her again.
As I slump down to the floor, the doctors paid no attention to me.
Mistaking my cry of happiness as one of grief, they busily attend to Her.
As my vision fades, I can still see them trying to resuscitate Her.
With my last breath, I spoke softly to myself,
“Lin”
And all was dark.
As my life ends, the electric pads worked their magic to my love.
The doctors had once again pried me away from the woman that I love.
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